I quit vaping again, which explains the cravings—they’re brutal. I thought I could go cold turkey, lasted a day, and now I’m back in the thick of it. Still feeling dehydrated, whether I vape or not. Not sure if it’s dehydration or something else—maybe an infection. I’m peeing constantly, and the pain’s intense. Can’t even bend over without wincing. Something’s off.

I’m so over this. Just got through the sinus infection, and now my body’s throwing another curveball? Peeing in a cup, waiting for results, maybe another round of antibiotics—none of it sounds appealing. I’m tired. Tired of guessing what’s wrong, tired of chasing relief, tired of my body feeling like a battleground. Even if it’s not an infection, something’s off. And I’m not in the mood to play medical roulette.

The only thing keeping me sane right now is the 80s music blasting in the background. Synths, drum machines, unapologetic emotion—somehow it makes the pain feel less clinical, less endless. It’s the one good thing in this mess. Everything else feels like a body malfunction, a craving spiral, a maybe-infection waiting to be confirmed. But the music? It reminds me I’m still here. Still refusing collapse.