I’m all out of spoons for today.
Tag: chronic conditions
Phase One of Retirement Completed

I’ve officially stepped back from YouTube. All my videos are now unlisted or private. It’s not a dramatic exit—just a quiet shift. My health hasn’t improved, and I no longer have the energy to sustain both this blog and the channel. The research papers are done, too. That chapter has closed.
There’s one final project I’m still working on. I hope to finish it before I die. It’s not grand, but it matters to me.
I’ll continue blogging here and on my personal site for as long as I’m able. No promises, no schedule—just presence, when I can offer it.
Still Feel Like Death
Feeling Exhausted and Reflecting on Blogging
My cats
These were my cats. The boys—gone now, years past. What remains is Perky Goth, Perky for short. I’ve considered bringing another into the fold, but fatigue comes fast. Chronic pain, illness—it shapes the edges of my days. One cat is enough.

VA: The Illusion of Choice
Republicans say that VA patients can get equivalent private-sector care anywhere in the U.S. Here’s a 50-state reality check.
Former FDA chief: Ultra-processed foods are ‘addictive’ like drugs
Seed oil alternatives
I have been cooking with coconut oil for years. Why not, as I already have it in the house for my dry skin?

Personal: Health update 01-12-2025
I’m feeling better, somewhat. I don’t want to speak too soon, though. The last two days, I’ve been drinking electrolytes. I just have to be careful and not drink too much, as that’s not good either. My sinuses are better, too.
I also started taking a low dose of lithium orotate. It’s not working yet, I suppose, but I haven’t been as moody. Sure, I started crying after I listened to a clip from The Electronic Intifada, but at least I wasn’t crying while playing the world’s smallest violin.
I’ve also been staying up longer than usual. Usually, I can only stay awake for a couple of hours. I’ve been up since Midnight, and I am getting tired now, though. It’s time to switch to my deadmau5 playlist. I either listen to that one or my Trance playlist when I go to sleep. Have a pleasant day!




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